yep.

I don't wanna talk to you anymore
I'm afraid of what I might say
I bite my tongue every time you come around
'Cause blood in my mouth beats
Blood on the ground

Hand over my heart I swear
I've tried everything I could within all my power
Two weeks and one hour I slaved
And now I've got nothing to show
Oh if only you'd grow taller than a brick wall
From now on, gonna start holding my breath
When you come around
And you flex that fake grin
'Cause something inside me has said more than twice
That breathing LESS air beats breathing you in

I don't wanna talk to you anymore
I'm afraid of what I might say
I bite my tongue every time you come around
'Cause blood in my mouth beats
Blood on the ground

Hand over my mouth, I'm earning the right to my silence
In quiet discerning between ego and timing
Good judgment is once again proving to me
That it's still worth it's weight in gold
From now on I'm gonna be so much more wary
When you start to speak and my warm blood starts to boil
Seeing you is like pulling teeth
And hearing your voice is like chewing tin foil

I don't wanna talk to you anymore
I'm afraid of what I might say
I bite my tongue every time you come around
'Cause blood in my mouth beats
Blood on the ground

High fives to better judgment
By saying less today, I will gain more, gain more
Low twos to you my, my fickle friend
You, you, you who brought the art of silent war

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:)

Today, Ryan and I drank 4 liters of root beer.

It was a good day.

<3

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Take heart, for He has overcome the world...

(1 Peter 3:8-17)

8Finally, all of you, live in harmony with one another; be sympathetic, love as brothers, be compassionate and humble. 9Do not repay evil with evil or insult with insult, but with blessing, because to this you were called so that you may inherit a blessing. 10For,

"Whoever would love life
and see good days
must keep his tongue from evil
and his lips from deceitful speech.
11He must turn from evil and do good;
he must seek peace and pursue it.
12For the eyes of the Lord are on the righteous
and his ears are attentive to their prayer,
but the face of the Lord is against those who do evil."

13Who is going to harm you if you are eager to do good? 14But even if you should suffer for what is right, you are blessed. "Do not fear what they fear; do not be frightened." 15But in your hearts set apart Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect, 16keeping a clear conscience, so that those who speak maliciously against your good behavior in Christ may be ashamed of their slander.

17It is better, if it is God's will, to suffer for doing good than for doing evil.

Jesus, I pray for resolution, unity, and growth... and I pray that you would have the glory through it all. Rescue us from the snares of the enemy, who seeks to destroy us and to divide us against each other. Give us grace and compassion when dealing with each other, and let us be a functional part of Your body... Amen.

Book!!

Dude. I SO want to read this book. I mean, the cover is super pretty, so I already was intrigued... but then I read the description, and I'm hooked! Can't wait to get my hands on it... maybe I can borrow it from Jeremy when he's done...? lol
The Divine Commodity

Oh, and Sonburst is tomorrow!! Yesssss! I am so ready. And that's all I have to say on the subject for now. :)

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Nice.

Muchas gracias a Juan para me muestra eso video. Lo me gusta mucho!
(Juan, thanks a lot for showing me this video!! I really like it!)

U2 rocks. And Jesus rocks even more.

Misplaced priorities and attempted celebration.

Today... yesterday, I guess... is/was my birthday. 22. Nothing too spectacular about that number, I suppose. I don't feel 22 (I say that every year... "I don't feel older!"). On a side note, Ryan took me to see Taking Back Sunday last night, and it was AMAZING!!! Sooooo good!! What a great show! :)

The daytime part of my bday was booooring... I wanted to go to the pool all morning and afternoon, but couldn't drag myself out the door. Finally, Theresa got off work, and me, her, and Nadia went to Cracker Barrel so I could get a free dessert. Hahaha. I'm such a mooch.

In the evening, I went to my New Testament class at the Underground like I do each Wednesday... during which Theresa texted me and said she was going home, bc the docs decided that her mom needed surgery in the morning. I felt so dumb when I called Jordan later to see who would be taking over her post at the bowling alley (Theresa was originally going early to reserve lanes). Like... seriously. Bowling. How unimportant when compared to what they are going home for... but still. Something that needed to be taken care of. I just felt retarded. "Um, so I hope everything goes okay at the hospital... I'll pray for you... so, anyway, who's at the bowling alley?"

Meanwhile.

Class ended. I was driving back to USF area when I got a call from Ryan. "Bad news... I got in a car accident." Apparently he was driving down Skipper, and someone stopped suddenly to turn into a complex... the guy behind that person stopped suddenly as well, and Ryan slammed on his brakes but hit him anyways. The person who Ryan hit (who we know, oddly enough) didn't recieve much damage... but Ryan's hood crumbled like an aluminum can. So, I took a detour to the crash site instead of heading straight to the bowling alley. Exchanging of information, taking photos, and pushing the car into my apartment complex ensued once I arrived (thanks for the help Hugo, bc that part would have been pretty much impossible without you!!). Ryan's parents came by as well, just to help out. His car is currently sitting in my apartment complex, waiting to be towed in the morning. It might be totaled... we'll see.

Finally, off to the bowling alley, and only about an hour and a half late to my own dang party!! I felt bad rushing Ryan off... once again, he crashed his friggin' car and here I am trying to get to the dang bowling alley. Thank God the crash wasn't worse. But still... I don't know. Do you understand the title of this entry, now? But I guess the show must go on, right?

We walked in, and found our friends occupying the 5 last lanes... and I was greeted by someone calling out "She's here!!" and everyone singing "Happy Birthday." I felt so special. :) Green and purple star-shaped balloons floated above containers full of cupcakes that also spelled Happy Birthday, complete with star-shaped confetti. It was pretty freaking sweet, I must say... it made me so happy to see everyone there! Seriously, I have amazing friends. I'm sad that Theresa and Jordan couldn't be there... because I know Theresa felt bad about it (she always feels bad about things that are totally out of her control!). But when it all came down to it, I did have a really good birthday. Everyone who went... you're amazing. I love you all.

Quote of the night: "So apparently, Robin rolls about 30 deep..." -Ryan

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WOW!

This has probably been the longest I've gone without posting. Things have been a little... intense. A lot has changed... I even have a new computer!! Another HP, of course... my favorite! Rivers, you served me well, and your death was honorable after 4 years... but I have to admit, Gilda is pretty slick. Haha. I'm such a nerd... But anyway, might I update you all with my life? (If anyone even still checks this thing... lol!)

I graduated with a final semester of straight A's, including on my Thesis, so that was pretty sweet. Then, it was straight to Chapter Camp. My experience was different this year than any other year, and honestly, it could have been better... but that's nobody's fault but my own. And through it all, God was still able to teach me and love me, because he's just that awesome. :)

Nadia and Jessica moved in with us, and it's been a little crowded and loud at times, but like I said, it could be much worse. Overall, I think it's going really well, and it's teaching me some about letting go of control, and of not stressing over things that aren't important. But I still can't wait until we move into the new place and have some more space! haha.

Aaaaand I got in to grad school!! USF College of Public Health, for Maternal and Child Health. I was super excited, because it took FOREVER to hear back from them. Now the question is, how will I pay for this?? I have some money saved up, and that will probably suffice for the first semester... but after that, I don't know. I'll either need a full time job on campus so I can have tuition reimbursement (I've already applied for two of those!), or I'll need scholarships... which are pretty hard to come by on the grad level, I'm beginning to discover. Or there's loans. Ugh. I've avoided them up until now... but I don't know if I'll keep that up. We'll see...

And also, Mexico was cancelled. Kind of seems like old news now, but it's worth mentioning. There was a lack of interest (a concept that still boggles my mind), and so they cancelled it... and then the whole swine flu thing happened, so more people probably would have dropped out after that. I've come to terms with it by now... I mean, as you see in my previous post, I sensed that it was coming, so I was prepared to hear it. The good news is, there's sort of an extended JJP type thing for all us college kids, called TMX, that I'm super stoked about. And the price is pretty sweet too... $138 or something (And remember when my parents gave me $150?? How convenient... Funny how things work out, lol). My JJP experience last year was really, really powerful, and it was only a weekend long. It truly impacted and changed my life, no exaggeration... read the post I linked to, if you don't believe me. So needless to say, I'm super stoked about this year! (If anyone wants to register for this year's JJP weekend, it's not limited to our church, so hit me up!! It's slightly less than $40 for the whole weekend, food included... you can't beat it! Check out www.jesusandjustice.com for info.)

Oh, and I'm taking a Summer Institute class with the Underground... I'm taking Brian's class on the New Testament. We've only had one class meeting so far, but I LOVE it already. I'm going to learn a LOT... maybe I'll start makign up for the fact that I don't have years of Sunday School knowledge like so many other people. I'm really looking forward to knowing the Bible better by the end of this, and understanding the culture and history that surrounds the stories of Jesus and of the early church. I love learning. :)

That's all for now. Pretty superficial, just to catch up... hope I can write something more significant soon. And I hope someone still reads this.

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