Lily of the Valley

One of my all-time favorite worship songs, sung during our impromptu jam session by the bonfire at IVCF's Spring Conference, 2009... it may not be the most "polished" rendition, but it's simply wonderful none the less.

Props to Samster the Hamster for filming it!! Thank you! :)

ugh

So, I know when you talk to someone about something that's bothering you, it's supposed to feel better after that... but ever since I talked to Jessica, I just feel like crap. Ugh. I can't believe I said anything. FRIG, I just want to pretend it never happened. :(

⁵ This is the message we have heard from him and declare to you: God is light; in him there is no darkness at all. ⁶ If we claim to have fellowship with him and yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not live out the truth. ⁷ But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin.

⁸ If we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us. ⁹ If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. ¹⁰ If we claim we have not sinned, we make him out to be a liar and his word is not in us.

I know talking about it was what I needed to do. But shoot. I still feel terrible. At least before, I could ignore it, but now I feel exposed, and I certainly don't feel "purified." My first reaction is to run... I want to hide in the very same darkness from which I'm struggling to escape. I want so badly to hide in the dark, yet Jesus calls me into the light. I understand that he does this... so why am I still feeling so repelled, embarrassed, and disgusted by my own openness?

If God is light, why is the light making me cringe?

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I feel so FREE!

• USF Grad School application... DONE

• Palm Lake Apartments application... DONE

• FAFSA... DONE

• IRB Exemption form... DONE

Hallelujah!! A ton of stress has just left my life! All I have to do is get my IRB form signed and drop it off... and then I'll REALLY be done with all this junk! :)

Off to go see Bill Nye...

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I'm so amused....

We're gonna play "name this person." No peeking! You have to guess!

What strapping young lad do these peepers belong to?


Not sure yet?

Try another picture:



Think you've got it now?

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Well, I hate to say it, but I am trying to trick you... they are two different people:

Jason Mraz and Ryan Ramsey!!

































Don't they have the SAME eyes?? I think it's rather freakish, and in fact I can't say with certainty that I can even tell them apart... hahaha.

I hope you are amused, 'cause I sure am. And Ryan, I'm so glad there is finally someone else who you look like, other than this guy:

you know who...

You make me want to live better. To dedicate myself even more to God... To use my talents fully for His glory, and to be an example to others around me. You remind me that nothing is guaranteed... you make me want to WAKE UP from this apathy and GO!

...you make me aware of my desire to live for Him, with every breath, word, and action... and you show me that if I simply do this faithfully, it will have more impact than any stinkin' accomplishment, than anything I could ever achieve, or "do" with my life.

We'll talk about this someday...

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le sigh

Had a long and meaningful conversation... the subject matter was rough at times, but it feels good to connect to someone. Reminds me of one of the few good things about middle school: still having my group of 3 real, true friends.

On an only semi-related note...

Catalyst,
You insist to pull me down
You contradict the fact that you
Still want me around,
And it's all downhill from here...

night...

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OUCH

...the pain in my uterus is radiating out into my stomach and my legs.

In case you wanted to know.

ow ow ow ow ow.....

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frozen.

I just don't understand...


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mmmmm

Robin wants some CANDAYYYYYYYYYY!!

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Futbol!

So, word on the street says I am most likely playing intramural soccer with the Monstars (Rob's team) this season! Woohoo! I'm really excited. IM soccer is something I've wanted to do since freshman year... even though I've never played soccer before. Haha.

Also, found out that WalMart and Target both have cheap cleats (around $12) and shin guards (around $7), so I won't have to slide all over the field and get constantly nailed in the shins! Always a plus! :)

So, guess I need to start training... running will be a good start, I think. lol... this is gonna be an interesting experience... :)


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hooray :)

People are talking to me... and I'm happy. :)

INSANE night at Cracker Barrel, by the way...

• Someone puked on Lacey's car... during the rush, of course. She was going back and forth from the kitchen to the parking lot with pitchers of water to clean it up. Like... seriously. There is a whole entire parking lot around you... and you puke on someone's car?? What the eff??
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• Dena flipping QUIT over something soooo stupid... lol. She walked out at like, 10 pm, and I had to take over all her tables... including a 7-top that had been sitting there waiting, because she got their drinks and then went off and flipped out and never came back. Luckily they seemed to still be in a decent mood by the time I got to them. But Dena was a closer, too... it really kind of screwed a few of us over, but whatever. I banked tonight, thanks to her. Haha.
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• A homeless man (I'm guessing) said he needed a way to Zephryhills, and asked to use the phone. One of the cashiers gave him the number to the HARTline info center. Did he call that number? No. He called 911, and rode away in an ambulance, flashing lights and everything.

Tonight was the kind of night that would be in a sitcom or something... its like The Office... but in a restaurant. Haha. Whatever, I made good money, and I survived. Now it's off to bed... church in the morning!