day and night.

I heard this song on the radio, and I really like it. I know it's about a stoner. But I still like it... It's written well, and I like the character it creates. Kind of reminds me of a time in my life... I don't know if that's good or bad, but there it is. I guess I just relate to being happy during the day, and kind of depressed and alone at night... that's just the way it flows for me. Good song.

Slow-mo
When the tempo slows up and creates that new, new
He seems alive though he is feeling blue,
The sun is shining man he's super cool, cool.

The lonely nights,
They fade away he slips into his white Nikes.
He smokes a clip and then he's on the way
To free his mind in search of...

Day and night.
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at night.
He's all alone through the day and night,
The lonely loner seems to free his mind at night...

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ow.

Step aerobics... probably NOT the best idea with shin splints, but I did it anyways. I really had the need to go to the gym today, and OUCH! Man, do I feel it now!! Got the legs wrapped and iced at the moment... hope it helps some.

I do love playing soccer though. Even though it makes my shins feel like they got run over by a truck, I love the game. I can't wait til the season starts. I'm officially playing defense, and I think it's gonna be fun. I wish I could be a striker, but let's be honest here, I don't have the ball handling skills. Shoot, I've only been playing for 3 weeks... lol! I'm much better at just getting in the other team's way. Hehehe.

Two weeks until Spring Break. For most students, this is a cause for celebration. However, for me, I am dreading this immensely. I have come to the conclusion that I will need to write the bulk of my thesis over the break... so, so sad. No beach for me... no pool... no fun road trips, or camping... I get to stare at my computer, and write something longer than I have ever written before in a format that I'm unfamiliar with. Awesome.

There, now I've updated. ;)

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Lily of the Valley

One of my all-time favorite worship songs, sung during our impromptu jam session by the bonfire at IVCF's Spring Conference, 2009... it may not be the most "polished" rendition, but it's simply wonderful none the less.

Props to Samster the Hamster for filming it!! Thank you! :)

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So, I know when you talk to someone about something that's bothering you, it's supposed to feel better after that... but ever since I talked to Jessica, I just feel like crap. Ugh. I can't believe I said anything. FRIG, I just want to pretend it never happened. :(

⁵ This is the message we have heard from him and declare to you: God is light; in him there is no darkness at all. ⁶ If we claim to have fellowship with him and yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not live out the truth. ⁷ But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin.

⁸ If we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us. ⁹ If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. ¹⁰ If we claim we have not sinned, we make him out to be a liar and his word is not in us.

I know talking about it was what I needed to do. But shoot. I still feel terrible. At least before, I could ignore it, but now I feel exposed, and I certainly don't feel "purified." My first reaction is to run... I want to hide in the very same darkness from which I'm struggling to escape. I want so badly to hide in the dark, yet Jesus calls me into the light. I understand that he does this... so why am I still feeling so repelled, embarrassed, and disgusted by my own openness?

If God is light, why is the light making me cringe?

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I feel so FREE!

• USF Grad School application... DONE

• Palm Lake Apartments application... DONE

• FAFSA... DONE

• IRB Exemption form... DONE

Hallelujah!! A ton of stress has just left my life! All I have to do is get my IRB form signed and drop it off... and then I'll REALLY be done with all this junk! :)

Off to go see Bill Nye...

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I'm so amused....

We're gonna play "name this person." No peeking! You have to guess!

What strapping young lad do these peepers belong to?


Not sure yet?

Try another picture:



Think you've got it now?

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Well, I hate to say it, but I am trying to trick you... they are two different people:

Jason Mraz and Ryan Ramsey!!

































Don't they have the SAME eyes?? I think it's rather freakish, and in fact I can't say with certainty that I can even tell them apart... hahaha.

I hope you are amused, 'cause I sure am. And Ryan, I'm so glad there is finally someone else who you look like, other than this guy:

you know who...

You make me want to live better. To dedicate myself even more to God... To use my talents fully for His glory, and to be an example to others around me. You remind me that nothing is guaranteed... you make me want to WAKE UP from this apathy and GO!

...you make me aware of my desire to live for Him, with every breath, word, and action... and you show me that if I simply do this faithfully, it will have more impact than any stinkin' accomplishment, than anything I could ever achieve, or "do" with my life.

We'll talk about this someday...

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